Depression

Depression is like a deadly infection that slowly spreads through your body.
You stop caring about things.
You stop caring about the voices that try to save you. you stop caring about the filth you live in.
You lose energy.
You lose the energy to get up and clean yourself; you know you are disgusting, but you lost the ability to care.
You try to make the inner pain leave by causing outer pain.
sometimes you feel like your body is rejecting your spirit and you act irrationally.
people yell at you for misbehaving; but you can barely hear them over the painful thumping of your heart.
you hate that sound, that feeling. It becomes so sickening and you want it to stop.
but you don't have the strength to.
you lay around in your filthy home; trying to be numb.